splendid

everythings fantastic

rip big l

what ive been up to

so I close my eyes
sit high in the dark
nod my head and escape all the pain in my heart
id take a walk but the streets are as dead as the people
and I cant wrap my mind around why I feel different
must be how I was raised
wihout passion to cheat
could have something to do with how I think more than speak
cause I see the big picture
its never not right in front of me
ive been fillin in blanks with the ink from my memories
I just cant believe it
all the life that ive seen and how used I am to leaving
when you think youve let yourself in then youll know how im feeling

4/20 will be dope

dry em

niandra ladies and usually just a t shirt

I love getting enough time to post up in NY and switch back over into creative mode. I like tour/promotion mode to but I can really only bear it to a certain extent and then I need to get back to this side. though they kind of flip back and forth. thats the cycle though.


recording only water for 10 days

to me

to me vunerability in writing is so important. stop posturing for a second and let people see the cracks in your armor. everyones human and we're all relatable. let them see the full scope of who you are and your message will set in a lot easier.

back to the future

just got back home to NY tonight. back to this side of the grind, im stoked

there's somethin to be said..

...for living the past 2 years in transit. Growing up across the 50 states basically. I wonder where it leaves me, maybe with some form of added knowledge I hope. I guess like everything it'll take some time to feel the effects. I mean, some are apparent to me obviously. "Movement" being the best example.

Im too used to this though. My life is set up to revolve around nothing BUT music and im happy about that. I don't think one can really focus on their work to their full ability if they're weighed down with too many things that don't matter. Ill save a lot of what im missing out on for later. The only things I miss are my parents, penelope cat, and the like 4 or 5 close friends I have left in my town. That sounds like a job well done to me.

Speaking of which, this is the last day of this current tour. Its down here in pembroke pines florida. The weather is absolutely awesome. Crazy to think that in like 24 hours ill be back in the cold haha. Oh well it happens. A nice 21 hour drive back up to NY to look forward to tonight also. Oh well, ill eat it, SO used to those by now haha. It'll be awesome to chill with big qway, castle, c man, fitchy etc. I haven't seen any of them yet in 2009, crazy. I've even had a birthday since seein em last haha.

Lookin forward to doin those college dates with Good Old War when we get back. One of my fave new bands for sure. And also lookin forward to jammin out a bunch of new shit. Chris and me were writing a lot over the past few months on tour so it'll be great to get to work out at home.

Much much much to do back in ny as soon as we arrive but I like it. Gotta keep it movin basically. Self made man haha

it is me who's walking

Life is a journey. Im just living. Do I die today or tomorrow. The only difference is what I do in the time between. And it makes the difference to myself, no one else. As much as your heart would like to think it would, the head says otherwise. The mind stays rational and the heart stays hopeful.

we've all become digital. we're all just glossy paper. Flip me open and take what you'd like. All I yearn to do is offer gifts. It doesn't matter who takes them or how many. Im just putting them out there, maybe you'll find them in a few years time. After college and after you've left those hometown friends behind. Please invest more of yourself. Don't just take it for what it is. You're rewarding too little right now. You're more and we all are. My art has cancer. My art has fucking cancer.

LI to NJ

Go radio are super cool, been having a lot of fun with them. Red car wire as well, all super cool.

Good to see the king of the hv, chris, and meg(h)an tonight. On the way over to suzannes right now. Super hungry.

Last day with bex! :[

Though last night was a catastrophe, its whatever. Tonight was cool but still felt empty. Its weird that playing music that I love to a ton of people seems to not even get me excited anymore. Had a long talk with mom today and I think im gonna get it back. Its just weird that the one thing I used to love doing feels so passionless these days. Mom says im just burnt out and that its like anything. If you do too much of something you just get burnt out on it for awhile.

But its whatever im def gonna get he spirit back. Watchin go radio everynight really makes me want to, they have so much passion, its awesome.

Allentown tomorrow eh?

this

I need things to stay normal, modest, and humble. Where im at is so conflicting, its sometimes up and its sometimes down. Im not sure what to make of it.

People tell you to follow your dreams/heart but they never tell you what to do when you've walked miles in one direction and then realized it was the wrong one. How do you dig yourself out when time and money are against you. "I told you so."

Its a hard reality, all of it is. Stay and sink? Ride this ship to the bottom or hop off. God knows.

Im thinking just bite the bullet with 2 eyes open and find a ledge to grab as soon as possible.

This world I don't know about though. Driftings probably not the answer

I quit

Drinking.

Im not above this or anyone one else. Im not above my friends and co workers. I've had enough of what's been goin on. My life is so fucked up and shitty as is that I don't need to be doing anything to push it even further back. What's the point really? I don't even know.

Just please please. Go to school and follow that route. Its such a nice beautiful sure thing. There's nothing to be said for doing this. Its nothing honestly. I swear to you. Whatever. My lifes been tainted. Im just gonna find my way. Please find yours.

carlton gets his

Pittsburgh pa hotel room floor.

Today was cool, first day of tour with Go Radio in Jeanette PA. The Dangerous Summer hops on for a few days and then Red Car Wire. All the Go Radio guys are cool as hell, can def tell this run is gonna be dope. Met some cool people at the venue tonight as well. Wilkes barre pa tomorrow, should be sweet

Ashton and demi on twitter is kinda ridic. The more I see the less I like, though I could never really hate on the kutch man. I need to hear this new Wale jam. There's lots I need to hear in the music dept, but I always get so behind on tour, oh well, ill catch up shortly. I always go to write these when its like 3am and im burnt out so nothin too interestin comes out, hmm.

Kyle creepily sleep whispers but its kinda fly. Gives me an outside perspective on my own sleep talkin, though apparently I get pretty loud lol.

It was cool to see all the chi town friends a few days ago too. I miss lil Karen the cat though. And on the cat note, there was a cat chillen in some building by the venue today. Like it was just in a closed business by itself. The owner must just leave it there over night. I was pettin it through the glass haha.

Sleepy, fresh prince time.

Still need to hit up a guitar center.

beat

Writin from the same hotel in cleveland as last night.

Woke up at around 2pm today after passin out at 7am. Headed over to the grog shop by 4 and the show was cool. Victory sent 2 dudes over to do a video interview and acoustic set which was fun. They were really cool dudes and obviously huge music fans. It was awesome to get to chill with em.

The set was fun tonight, played "settle ny settle" for the 1st time in awhile. Felt great. Met some cool peeps and headed back to the hotel to chill with the fight fair homies. Very normal day basically. Howell michigan tomorrow, should be fun.

Watchin the fresh prince now which is pretty much a late nite past time.

Later

malcolm in the middle

writing this from the floor of a hotel in cleveland ohio.

Show in altoona today was fun. Just a pretty normal day. Bigman Rollins came out though. So fly.

Afterwards we decided to just overnight drive it to cleveland and grab a hotel by the time it turned over for the next day. Aka the "get 2 nights for the price of 1" trick.

About to pass out, nothin crazy to do today thankfully. Playin at the grog shop tonight, never been before, should be chill. I really need to call home. Ill have to do that later today actually.

Malcolm in the middle is on lol.

time is no time at all

I hate these wack PA towns. Sheetz would have just been awesome but we're makin such good time. Whatever I've got tea.

I need to tie some loose ends up on a couple new jams. Lookin forward to recording some stuff 1st off tour break we have.

Only a few more days with fight fair and the bigger lights, that's kinda wack but oh well that's how it goes. Should be fun to see those dangerous summer(s) in a few days,

Im contemplating food(s) right now. Hm sheetz? The bell? Chinese? Def not pizza. Too much of that the past few days.

Ears poppin! I hope tonight is fun. Ill make it fun regardless but I wouldn't mind the help. It should be though, no worries.

Twitter is the only thing that keeps me entertained. twitter.com/sergiootaegui

Read more. I always start and then just get carsick haha. Is that a moving violation?

eleFANT shiell

writing this from an obscure gas station in pennsylvania.

played in buffalo ny last night. It was cool, punk rock as hell. Lamped with big m, bardsley, and bonez back at their apt afterwards. Passed out in a recliner and woke in the recliner.

On the way to altoona pa right now. 5 hour drive. kinda on the boring side cause all of this area is so rural and backroady. I need to get to a guitar center.

Perhaps brass monkeys tonight?

Hopefully we come across some normal civilization soon. Taco bel has gotta be missing me.

nick at nite

currently writing this from the greatest couch of all time at the gazelles house in rockland.

so on the way way to jammin java some kids rocked us with snowballs. thankfully justin got em back with a bottle of pee (magics).

the show was cool. Due to weather it was nowhere near what it should/would have been but these things happen. the promoter, mikey, was really cool and the set was fun. I realy like the backstage room at jammin java, its really laid back and ideal. the only downside was I waited til after we played to eat and there was nothin left by then. Oh well.

after that we treked it from va up to ny overnight which was heinous. The weather was beyond shitty out and we were sliding up a storm. Again, it happens. We got to lil justin flo teezys house around 8/9am and I immediately passed out from then til about 4:30pm. When I woke up I was informed that the show in Long Island that night was cancelled due to weather, but I guess obviously considering how late I was able to sleep to. Kind of a bummer but it totally made sense. It woulda been such a shitty drive down there in this weather and I was beyond beat.

Just ended up chillen here at justins all day basically. Yonkers NY show tomorrow, that should be fun. Lookin forward to seein Gorse tomorrow and I miss the Fight Fair guys after a day of not chillen with em already, but they're down in manhattan right now gettin to se NYC for the first time ever so that's awesome.

Also found out that PA on jan 30th got switch to a festival in MA with the just surrender guys. Well be doin it acoustic which is actually really fun.

Some business to take care of in the am tomorrow and a lot to look forward to over the next few days (years?). As for now im gonna be chillen out watchin fresh prince episodes while everyone else sleeps. Sure ill dose off in a bit.

[sergio otaegui]

flashing lights

on the way to vienna virginia from raleigh north carolina right now.

show last night was fun, a lot of kids came out and such. A lot of surprises lately.

Its super dreary and rainy out right now, not too too cold though. Just what I'd consider chilly.

Listenin to "graduation" right now. Its still fly. Basically pretty bored right now. About 2 hours left on the drive. Tonight should be crazy awesome too.

left that shit in 2005

writing this from the floor of a hotel room in south carolina.


today was dope, the bigger lights started and we welcomed them by staging a fake beef with fight fair. it was fun

met some cool kids at the show tonight which always make it worth it. brewery tomorrw in NC. should be sweeet. not too much to say. just a usual day. should continue to be a fun next couple of weeks

sunshine state

So tonight is our last night in florida after a few days of shows here. They were all awesome and a lot of fun. And the weather felt great for sure.

Its been awesome bein out with fight fair, they're all so chill and cool. Tomorrow the bigger lights hops on in georgia and the tour rides out til feb 7th. Im thinkin its only get more fun with em on. And im sure the shows will continue to be dope.

We're on the way from tampa to stay at our friends in winter park tonight.

Sector 7 G in augusta tomorrow

sunshine state

So tonight is our last night in florida after a few days of shows here. They were all awesome and a lot of fun. And the weather felt great for sure.

Its been awesome bein out with fight fair, they're all so chill and cool. Tomorrow the bigger lights hops on in georgia and the tour rides out til feb 7th. Im thinkin its only get more fun with em on. And im sure the shows will continue to be dope.

We're on the way from tampa to stay at our friends in winter park tonight.

Sector 7 G in augusta tomorrow

casiotone for the DRIVING A LOT

These drives really get so damn boring at times. Its mind numbing as hell. Oh well its not that bad at all. Shows have all been cool, about to start the tour with fight fair and the bigger lights, im sure that'll be fun. I love the breathe electrics and the dino though so its sad to part ways but ill see em all soon.

On the way to murfreesboro TN to chill with a friend right now, that'll be cool im sure. Didn't sleep at all last night, just stayed up at the hotel in Indiana all night and went to bed 15 minutes before check out. Heinous/hilarious. retarting your batteries after not sleepin at all reminds me of that warped tour feelin.

Oh im 22 now btw, not sure if I mentioned that. Its dope, gonna be a great age and a great year. Jan 13th 1987! Haha spent it in st.louis/chicago.

Back to twittering to pass the time

lock it up

Will anything, either positive or negative, that you're doing or being affected by right NOW truly matter in 10 years? Think about that and prioritize accordingly. You never wanna look back with regret or realize that you wasted time. Be grateful for what you DO have and make steady strides to get to where you want to be.

So much that we concern ourselves with is truly trivial.

And thus, lock it up. Relish the day. Cherish the moment. Sculpt the future. Its your movement after all.

[sergio otaegui]

this sure takes a lot

I think a lot goes to be said for just living a normal life. But it really has to be either/or. No in between. That's when it really just gets depressing and that's where most people fuck it up. I know how I'd do it. Just be gone. Real quick and silent. The grass is always greener though. And who am I to debate it now a near 2 years after the fact. No debating though, im just stating.

I guess im just livin in the moment. Thinkin in the future. Stuck in my own reality. Whatever it may be I've made it for myself and Ill be lying in it for awhile.

Music(s)

So damn self made. You don't even know the half of it.

[sergio otaegui]