rip big l

what ive been up to

so I close my eyes
sit high in the dark
nod my head and escape all the pain in my heart
id take a walk but the streets are as dead as the people
and I cant wrap my mind around why I feel different
must be how I was raised
wihout passion to cheat
could have something to do with how I think more than speak
cause I see the big picture
its never not right in front of me
ive been fillin in blanks with the ink from my memories
I just cant believe it
all the life that ive seen and how used I am to leaving
when you think youve let yourself in then youll know how im feeling

4/20 will be dope